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April 26 London Trip!!!It seems like my MSN Space has become popular overnight since I wrote the story about Kendra and Kristin.
Thanks for all the comments...
Both Kendra and Kristin have really good intentions about helping the girls around the world who are struggling with their situations.
So I wish them luck and success...
Although I wish I could be a permanent student, I might have to think about helping others, too.
So I consider working with Kendra and Kristin or with Girls By Design is my very first step towards the goal.
Alright, now welcome to England...the Land of the Unpredictable Weather!!!
Telling you the whole story about London and Exeter will take forever to finish...so I think I will just let the photos tell the story.
What I don't like about being in London is the RP or British accent...it is beautiful, but I've found it hard to understand.
What I like about London is everything else, except RP...hahaha
It's nice to be abroad again and get to see the other side of the world.
As an official photographer of the trip, I also have some photos to share... I hope you find there worth looking at.
Good news: I am going to Nepal in November!!!
Bad news: I have to write 2 short stories and 2 poems + prepare the presentation.
PS. For more information about Girls By Design: www.girlsbydesign.com
April 24 Kendra Voth and Kristin Kreuk!!!This is actually an update for the story I should have written a long time ago.
I had been working for Kendra and Kristin in Febuary.
Both Kendra and Kristin are in Smallville, a serie about Superman!!!
Kendra has been working behind the scene, while Kristin has been Lana Lang, a girlfriend of Clark or Superman.
So I have been working with Hollywood Star!!!
Kristin is to be in Thailand for 4 months because she is staring in Street Fighter; The Legend of Chunli.
However, Kendra and Kristin are working on their own project called "Girls By Design"
...and this is where I come in...
Girls By Design is a project that aims to bring together the diverity between girls from all over the worlds
to give them inspiration and create comfidence in themselves.
Therefore, what we had been doing was interviewing girls from different places and...
conducting the workshop for the girls to come together and express themselves.
Anyway, what I want to write down here is not really about the Girls By Design.
It is about the question Kendra once asked me...
We were talking about my future and I told her that I wanted to keep studying and being a student.
Her reaction was... "What? Are you afraid of the real world, Yammy???"
I didn't answer the question... but the truth is "Yes, I am afraid of the real world"
As I have grown up, I have learned that the world is not as beautiful as I thought it would be.
There is so much to learn about the worl and sometimes I even feel that it is too much for me ... I just don't want to know more about it.
Anyway, trying to answer myself how long I will be able to keep myself away from the real world,...
I don't think I can do that very long either... So I should just get ready for it.
God, I hope you will give me strength and bravery to overcome this fear.
It is not gonna be easy, but since there are people out there urviving in the real world...I will survive, too.
Thanks, everybody, for being by my side and making me know that whatever I will face in the real world...it is not gonna be too bad since I have you all.
Thanks, Kendra, for asking me this question. It gets me thinking and now I know my fear... just have to deal with it before it is too late.
For those who are also afraid...I wish you luck in everything you do.
Life is tough...that's what my professor always tell me and I think it is true after all.
Just be as positive as possible...maybe the beauty of life is attached to something very small and easy to experience. February 02 "What is a Gentleman???"Before, Dawn was my boss and she is still my boss actually.
It is just that she looks very young...so I don't really think about the age matter.
We have been to many places and, for the last few weeks, I am now consider it "a Friendship"
I went shopping with Dawn today...(this is the 2nd time in a week!!!)
Although she likes vegetables and I can eat any of them, we do have a lot in common...
Especially the part that we both are independent and have a strong personality.
So now...what to do with a gentleman???
After a long walk, Dawn said...
"If I will have a husband, I will find someone who is really a gentleman"
I asked..."What do you mean by being a gentleman???"
Dawn immediately answered...
"A gentleman is someone who always lets woman go first!!!"
I don't know why, but I didn't say anything in response...
A few minutes ago, I got up and found myself thinking about the word "Gentleman"
For me, I don't really care whether I always get to go first...
but I would appreciate if he always has the reasons in mind why he chooses to go first and why he lets me go first.
As long as he is holding my hand...I hope that I can feel the comfort.
Sometimes, the situation can be very complicated.
We never know whether something dangerous or risky is waiting for us,
so facing the uncertainty first is considered bravery.
At the same time, if he is sure that we are going to face something beautiful,
I hope that he will let me see it first and he will be standing by my side looking at the beautiful thing together.
This might sound like something which does not exist in reality...
But I believe that My Gentleman really exists...hopefully!!!
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Dawn, nothing to worry now, we are not going to fall in love with the same guy!!!
Friends, thank you for making me feel that life is full with comfort already without My gentleman who maybe is not born yet!!!
January 25 ...Through My Fifth Eye!!!...You know I wear glasses...
but now I am carrying my Lumix around as my 5th eye!!!
After awhile, I have realized that, through the lense, the world looks different somehow.
I have been to different places...with an intention to take photos...
But a surprise is actually hidden in the story behind those photos I have taken.
On Jan 3, 2008, I wandered from SanamLuang to KhaoSan Road ...
On Jan 4, 2008, I went to Siam Paragon...
On Jan 5, I walked around the Freedom Park...
On Jan 12, 2008, I visited 9 temples and 1 Chinese shrine...
During Jan 18-21, 2008, I had been in Thuk Kae Village, Kho Sirey, in Phuket...
...and there is a lot more to come...
Looking at things from different perspectives allows me to see the world in different angles.
I have learned that sometimes I don't have to understand everything...
It is just the way it is...and it is good already...
However, there is also something that I can't just let it go!!!
This is going to be a long story...so I will tell you guys later then...
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Dear God, thank you for everything...
Keeping an eye on me must be very difficult because I keep running away from your sight...
But so far you have never missed any chance to make sure that I am doing great!!!
Dawn, knowing you is something I have never expected...and it's such a surprise!!!
Thank you for giving me a chance to work with you...
you know that I can't do much, but you let me try and do my best!!!
A and Golf, I can't imagine how dinner would be like without you guys (after I graduate)
Anyway, don't ask me to stay longer... you know why!!!
The O family, Mae+Noei+Golf+A+..., it is nice having you as siblings.
I just want you to know that I value our smiles and laughters so much!!!
Nate, thank you for calling and trusting me...
If anything happens, I just want you to know that I am here for you to count on!!!
Jana, I think of you again...what else can I do when we are so far apart???
Praerin, just come home...everybody understands you now 555
SU friends, how can we be so busy that we never get to meet at all???
Take care of yourself as well as your heart!!!
BM friends, Marn and I are trying to make the reunion happen...see you soon!!!
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~~Best Wishes to All~~ November 05 My Lazy Poem!!!Globe sultry, humid drying, warming, flooding sick, dreary, chaotic, noisy burning, sinking, blinking lifeless, war-torn World --------------------------- After sharing the first poem with you a few weeks ago, here comes the second poem. The deadline was coming, so its length answers the question why it is very short.
Too much has happened... I have moved into the new apartment and I live alone now!!! My trip to Indonesia has been cancelled!!! The first week of the semester has passed and I was not vey happy with the courses!!! One grade from last semester is still unknown!!! I have spent a lot of money already for the beginning of this month!!!
However, life goes on... Although what has happened can be called a "misfortune", I can see the better picture of the future. This is probably another beginning and... It must be great!!! ------------------------------------
"God Bless You All" I really miss you guys, take care!!!
October 19 Who cares???The door banged shut. He was gone…
In front of the mirror, She collapsed, Her face was falling down, Drops of water dripped on her laps
Love became… A word of the past It was over, Though she had tried so hard
Got up early Prepared breakfast Ironed his shirts And satisfied his lust
It was all about him She cared so much But his care about her Was very hush-hush
Ran out of tears, She looked up…
Swollen damp red eyes Running nose Uncontrollable sobbing Indifferent ghost
In the mirror, She stared At the reflection of the only person She never cared.
The door swung open … September 10 ...When You Believe...When You Believe
Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear In our hearts a hopeful song We barely understood Now we are not afraid Although we know there's much to fear We were moving mountains Long before we knew we could In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain Hope seemed like the summer birds Too swiftly flown away Yet now I'm standing here My heart's so full, I can't explain Seeking faith and speaking words I never thought I'd say There can be miracles... When you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill Who knows what miracles... You can achieve When you believe...Somehow you will "You will when you believe" They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fears But when you're blinded by your pain Can't see your way clear through the rain A small, but still, resilient voice Says help is very near ----------------------------------------------------------------------
Actually, I hardly have time to write down anything at the moment.
However, since I have been fighting with so many things...
I found myself humming this song all the way through the difficult times.
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could I like this sentence though I sometimes ask myself...
"What am I moving the mountains for???"
For those who are fighting in the same battlefield, Note, May, Sun, and others...
I believe that we all will pass these difficulties together though separately!!!
For my new friends in the same battlefield, MA friends,...
We might have made a wrong decision to be here in the program, but...
I believe that there is no better decision in my life since I get to know you all!!!
For everybody else in different battlefields, I hope life is getting more challenging...
Take care and make every second worth our youth!!!
When we are old, we will not be able to move any mountains anymore!!! September 02 ...Killing Myslelf Softly???..."Am I killing myself??"
This question just popped up in my mind a minute ago and...
though I don't have much time, I want to keep this moment somehow.
Life is not as easy!!!!
I know this fact and I cannot run away from it anymore.
University life had been a great shelter for the past 4 years, but now I am in the WORLD
where life is so demanding and I don't know how much I can afford it.
School is hard as always, but papers make it even harder!!!
Have you ever read something for 20 times and had no idea what it is all about???
Until the last minute that you just got the idea and it's almost too late.
Work is getting more complicated!!!
I don't really know what I expect for my life...
When everything is good...boss, colleagues, the work itself, and money...
What else do I want???
Job is undeniable!!!
I have never thought about someome offering me a job in my dream...
and I don't understnad it has to come in this time...
but I also know that it can't wait, so GO FOR IT then
The workshop in Indonesia is coming!!!
One original short story and Two poems to write...
Who do they think I am???
But I am here to prove that a person like me can be a writer, a good one too!!!
It has been 30 hours since I woke up...
No time to do anything else, even sleep...my favourite hobby!!!
Sorry, those who love me, I am not taking care of myself very well.
Sorry, those whom I love, I am not very good at keeping in touch.
However, you all have never been forgotten and I will go through all these things.
Be there and have your fingers crossed for me!
I will do my best as always!!!
Just hope that my best will be enough...will be back again someday...
July 31 ...Return to the Real World... It was very nice having 5 days off for the Graduation, despite the tiredness and boredom.
One nice thing was that... Friends got to be together again for the last time!!!...
It sounds strange, but it's true because...
There will not be any chance in the fututre that all of us would see one another again.
So I wish you all the best and...
If it happens that we meet again sometimes, don't forget to say "HI!!!"
The only thing that you don't have to ask is about getting married because...
If I am going to leave my freedom forever, I would let you all know!!!
Coming back to the real world...the world of responsibilities!!!
I don't want to grow up, people!!!
Can I stay young in my little space at the corner of my little world???
I wouldn't be so childish if the world was still friendly and peaceful, but...
the truth is the world that I was born with is gone!!!
I don't seem to know my surroundings any longer... I actually feel the loss!!!
Dear God, my birthday has just passed...I wish to ask you one thing...
May all the people in the world realize the importance of what we have lost...and...
Let them come together to recreate those precious things we used to possess.
We, the people, can't only wait for God to make a miracle!!!
Let's start at the easiest thing...
Smile at yourself once in awhile and then smile at others...they need it!!!
Buy things and say "NO Bag" because the world is getting hotter and hotter!!!
Let the gossip be the gossip... don't be drawn in those rubbish information!!!
What else??
You can probably think about many more...
Anyway, thank you for my birthday presents as well as the ones for my Graduation!!!
They will remind me of each one of you...and how much you mean to me.
Thank you ... Thank you ... and thank you!!!
May 15 ...What Does It Mean By Leaving?..."If you wanna leave you can.
I'll remember you though, just like the way I remember everyone that leaves."
- Lilo and Stitch -
Leaving does not have a positive meaning in my own dictionary.
Maybe it is because most of the time I pay attention to someone/something/somewhere that is being left.
However, once in awhile, when I change to the different angle I found that...
Leaving is not always negative, but...It just depends on "what one is leaving for"
One can leave for something better
One can leave for something worse
One can even leave for something one has no idea whether it would be better or worse
Everybody has the right to leave someone/something/somewhere, but...
Before you do so, just spend a minute to think about someone/something/somewhere which is going to be left behind.
It is painful enough to see one leaves...so give that person/thing/place a big hug before you take a step away
Because you never know whether you will come back again...
Or even when you come back, you can not be sure if that person/thing/place is still there.
To those who have left me and who have been left by me,...
Thank you for making saying Good-bye so hard
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Jana, I don't know how it happens, but your absence really makes me feel empty.
There is nothing you can do, but I just want you to know that...
It means ... though my heart is as small as a fist, there is always a space for you!!!
N'Euang, as you are in Japan now, you are also included in this article.
You know how much I love you and your place will never be taken by anyone. You complete me!!!
SU Friends, it's hard to say Good-bye,
But as I believe that we all leave for the better, I wish you all the best.
Those who are still at the University, keep on fighting and remember that you are never forgotten.
I really miss you guys.
The Acunas, I always wonder...How can a year make a relation which will last forever???
You really did make it happen and thank you for everything.
I wish you could know how nice it is to be able to call you "My American Family" with all my love!!!
Praerin and others in other countries, wherever you are, you are never forgotten.
I am always here with love and concerns.
In whatever you do, I wish you a success and I will have my fingers crossed for you!!! April 19 ...Something, Called Miracle...Every one of us has been waiting for a "Miracle" to happen at least once in a lifetime.
Some wait silently, while some try to do everything they can to seek a miracle.
Unfortunately, not everybody experiences "a real Miracle" in life.
Actually, it depends on the definition of “Miracle”.
Some people ask for something impossible,
while some expect something that can occur at any point of time.
What does “Miracle” mean anyway?
If it really happens but it results in something undesirable, will you still call it a “Miracle”?
Some of those who are waiting for a "Miracle" do not really know what exactly they want.
Also, sometimes, when what they call “Miracle” results in something unexpected,
it is not considered a “Miracle” any longer.
Personally, I believe that a "Miracle" happens all the time.
Sometimes, it happens unexpectedly
and one does not even realize that it is a “Miracle” until time passes by
and it is almost too late for one to realize the inportance of what has happened and consider it a "Miracle".
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I just want you all, family and friends, to know that you are one of the Miracles that happen in my life
Jana, Thank you for being my inspiration!!!
what makes you special is that...
“once you happen in my life as a “Miracle”, you have brought other Miracles with you into my life
and now my life is filled with Miracles” April 08 ...Alone, but Not Lonely!!!...“A man has to live with himself,…and he should see to it that… he always has good company.”
-Charles Evans Hughes-
I am still in Silpakorn University, though all my friends have left.
"Am I lonely?"..."Not really"
I have been translating the book for the temple and I’ve just got it done last night.
I have been teaching N’Ploy, my student, almost everyday during the week.
I have been visiting the 2 Top Models whenever I have a chance.
Note warned me before he left that I would be very lonely around here.
A part of it is true…
Without you all, the University has never been the same again.
Yesterday, I took a walk around and realized that…
My University life would have meant nothing if you all hadn’t been here.
The laughter and those happy moments could happen because of "You"
However, another surprising part is that… I don’t feel that lonely…
Though friends are no longer here, our great times stand still in my memory.
Actually “Alone” has nothing to do with “Lonely”
It is what inside one’s heart that matters.
Thank you, Jana, Vicky, Natr and N’Ploy, for filling my every day.
Without you all, I would have left the University a long time ago
And never have learned how important it is to be a friend of my very own.
Thank you, Note, for being by my side always.
Thank you, Friends, for making me feel so secure in our 2nd home.
However, it would be nice if I could be together again once in awhile.
Because Job is right…
Although a man must be able to be alone, he still needs some encouragements.
And they come from Friends!!!
Stitch says that “Family means nobody has been left behind or forgotten”
Since we had spent our last 4 years in our big blue house,
I believe that the bond in our big family is strong enough to bind us togethear forever.
“Every one of us will always be remembered!!!”
March 17 ...Is There a Future???...It has been a long time since the last time I was here.
Of course, I have been through all the final exams as well as many parties.
Congratulations to you all (and myself, too)!!!
"So what now???"
This is the shortest, but hardest question!!!
I have been thinking about the future and realize that maybe there is no real future at all.
What really exists is this second and this moment!!!
However, I am glad with this answer...
Because when I think about it all over again, I have found that...
Each second in my life has been spent in such a valuable way!!!
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Friends, thank you again for everything...
The trip to Hua-Hin, though somebody was not there, was great.
It's hard to accept that this might be the last time, but I still hope that we can make it again.
The 2 Next Top Models, thank you for your hospitality...
You have come into my life at the moment that I really need someone.
I am glad to know you and although it's a late start, I hope I have made it up very well.
There is not much time left, but I know that it's worth having!!!
You are a miracle that I have talked about...and it's also destiny!!!
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Note, Congratulations on your success...
When you complete each step, there is always someone here who is also proud of you, my friend!!!
Lee, Now it's your time...
I have been concerning about your study, but there is nothing to concern now
Because in living a real life, I know that you are much better than I am!!!
Por, What is for dinner???...
Without a roommate, it will probably be hard to think about what to have and what to do.
You have made my last year much easier both with the meals and everything else!!!
May, No more class together...
It will be different to sit in class with the strangers after I have such a buddy like you.
Sun, You are free now!!!...
You have been the public guy for the last 4 years...now it's time to find a girl (Not a guy!!!)
Ice, Will there be another long talk???...
I haven't got to talk very often, but once we start, it's nice and never seems to end.
It's always nice talking to you and I hope we can talk once in a while.
Job and Why, I am so proud of you...
After your plays, I don't know what happened to others,..
But my eyes were filled with tears...I am so happy for you!!!
And all the rest, it's not that you are not important, but how can I thank you enough???
You have made me know how lucky I am to have you all around.
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